Understanding

I simply don't understand why some things happen.  I got some very sad news tonight that a precious lady from church is in the valley of shadow of death.  She is a sweet woman who I know wanted to live.  She wanted to win her battle with cancer.  She wanted to be here for many more years to enjoy her friends and family.  But...maybe it's not meant to be...maybe this is one of the things I will never understand.  I trust God..that is the bottom line.  If she doesn't make it...I still trust Him.  After all the death beds I have stood by, I have accepted that I will not understand everything that happens.  God has not promised me understanding...he has promised me peace and comfort.

Lord, help me to rely on you and you alone.  My understanding is so frail and so fragile.  I am subject to emotion and worry, but you are the giver of life and peace and comfort.  Help me to lean not on my own understanding...but to acknowledge you in everything...and you will carry me through.  Amen

Change

Some things have to change...mostly me.  I have to make some changes in my life so that my future will be better.  God is with me and he gives me the strength to triumph...so this will be no different.  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  I will overcome. His strength will be made perfect in my weakness.  So...what to do now.  Go about my days and just wait for a change of heart or a change in desire?  Pray harder, pray better, live better, act better, trust God more, depend on my own willpower less.  Yes, those are all good things but the bottom line is....I'm getting older and if I want to live healthy...I have to change.  I must do this for myself and for Bo.  We are the temples of the Holy Ghost.

Lord, help me to remember who I am.  I am your temple.  I am your representative.  I want to represent you well.  Help me to depend on you when I am weak and to focus on you...and your power to change me.  Amen.

Family

It's family night tonight and I am sooo looking forward to it.  I think I'm changing..not that I haven't always loved my family...because I have.  It's just that I now appreciate the time we spend together more.  We're all getting older and our lives are busy and sometimes filled with stress.  Family time is a little bit of relaxation and fun to keep us all grounded in what's important.

Lord help me to value time and family even more.  Help me to realize that nothing is more important than loving and supporting and finally taking them all to heaven with me...so family time can last for eternity. Amen.