Wow..I'm not keeping up well with the blog thing but this morning is the perfect time to put my thoughts...and fears in black and white and let them go!
This has been an emotional week with a few glimmers of hope and peace sprinkled amongst the shadow of fear and tragic memory. I have looked back with regret and looked forward with anxiety. I have felt the peace of God and the panic of doubt. I have traveled the road of memory and chances lost. So...now what?
Do I wallow in self-pitty and regret or move forward...leaving the past behind? Do I allow the awesome, powerful, terrifying, transfigured Christ to beckon me to higher heights and deeper faith? Or do I allow despair to swallow me because of paralyzing fear?
My heart is moving forward as my mind is racing backward. My comfort is leaning on the everlasting arms, yet my fingers seem just out of reach of the hem of His garment. This too shall pass and I WILL move on to deeper faith...to a testimony that firmly shows that in my greatest times of sorrow and fear...I kept on trusting. My testimony is that doubt and fear did not destroy my faith...it did not even weaken my faith. My faith has conquered my fear. This is how we overcome...even our faith!